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In just 12 more days, I will be the legal wife of the man who has been loving me unconditionally from the start, even when I haven't then.

I feel differently the same, should this make any sense. 7 years of relationship cum partnership, yet we knew each other 10 years ago, became close friends 9 years ago. We can practically proclaim "I've known her/him for almost half my life". Thus becoming legal spouses is merely a change to the 'official' status, just a paper ceremony. This way, everything remains. Yet, there are going to be so many upcoming phases and 'life' projects awaiting us - these are different tastes of life to be experienced. 

Building our love nest is going to be exciting, temporarily casting aside the months of hard works to be done which have already began. The end product is definitely going to be worthwhile, we are certain.

Moving out physically from my comfort home I've been with since birth, I'm already having tearful thoughts and moments now and then. So much emotional adaptations to make. Not coming back to my heroine welcoming me home, saying she knows it's me just by the sound of my footsteps with my hero giving his classic slight smirk to her quirky comment. Not coming back to my siblings ordering food delivery and asking whether to count me in. Not coming back to my parents having their eyes glued to HK/Korean drama series and debating over their differing predictions of the next scene. Not coming back to my brother cooking maggie mee and stealing a few mouths from his bowl without him ever complaining. Not coming back to the bed my siz and I share till today and having random conversations, discussions, gossips till either of us falls asleep. So many many more. Some may be embarrassed to admit or even mention how attached they are to their family. Not me. I proudly declare how emotionally and physically attached I am to my most precious family, Just like the wordings on my back dictate, "My family is beautiful because they make me believe that I am, by showing me how worthy I am to be loved, and because of them, I'm being nurtured to love." How to not be deeply attached to parts of your own soul? 

Fortunate thing is our own nest is still considered near to my comfort home so I'll still be able to get my healthy dose of emotional pill. 

Each love journey to its own, and I pray for all love to be equal in the eyes of all. No love is inferior. No love should be disregarded. No love should be measured by gender, race, nationality. Love doesn't have to be further complicated by the narrow mindsets of others, it is beautiful, whether it is between the same or different gender/race/nationality. He loves her for her. He loves him for him. So why should gender come into the picture? 

I'm digressing. It's just that, I want him to be happy too. 

Money is the factor, for now, for my hesitancy now. 

With the limited funds, I'd rather prioritize our dream house and photo shoot over a wedding banquet. The both of us only get to go through this once, this being our very own private affair. So why do families and relatives get to decide they have a say in what belongs to us? You've your own marriages (going to have one), likewise for us, this is our own too. How would you like it if we poke our nose around your private affairs? We do love our families, but that doesn't mean we like them to decide whether we should hold a wedding banquet or not. It is our own choice, a choice that belongs to the couple. 

Spending on our dream cozy house and photo shoot is different. It signifies the intimacy of the couple since both involves just them alone. Wedding banquet involves literally everyone, which I'm not detesting. Just that if I were to prioritize (which I need to since money isn't abundant for us), I will want to focus on renovating our own love nest and once in a lifetime photo shoot, first.

 
Fireworks is brilliantly attention seeking, in a positive way.

Despite its short span of life, it shines brighter than anything else in the skies. Living its life, that's what I'd say it does. It ain't afraid of fading into the dark, even nonchalant about whether it has indeed leave an impression in someone's mind, it merely shines for that short moment and it thinks that's sufficient. Unlike us, who's always asking for more and having a never-settle-for-less fixated and boring mindset.

Instead of chasing someone's dreams and catching up with someone's pace, people are doing that to catch a glimpse of it. It's so precious because we know it doesn't last forever. How many of us are like that, like fireworks?

Imagine a fireworks proposal for someone who marvels at the mere imagination of the sight of it. The stark contrast of after witnessing a living example of nothing beautiful lasts forever and asking for the hands of your life partner is a courageously romantic move.