Showing posts with label happiness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label happiness. Show all posts

I shouldn't be made an option, let alone a second choice. But because I determine my own emotions, I've learnt to not allow others determine whether I should feel elated or sorrowful.

Moreover, it's lunar new year, a festive period. More happiness shall pour in to my heart and soul.

I'm glad that I've discovered another one of my inner growth today.

Life for me, I wouldn't say it has been a breeze but since my last post, there hasn't been any major setback/hiccup that has occurred to me and for that, let me boast and spread my genuine happiness. 

1 Nov 2015: our 7th anniversary and he puts a ring on me. The proposal was a great success because I was so taken aback by the surprise that I screamed, laughed, cried altogether. The hysterical me obviously didn't manage to keep my composure (not that I was attempting to anyway) despite all the different cameras aiming at me. With our beloved families and close friends there to witness this significant moment, I have nothing more to ask for. 


  



His speech was nothing close to cliche, it was close to his heart, close to mine. I find myself replaying his speech in my head while eyeing on the beautiful customized ring on my finger. 
 

Another moment leading me into another phase of my life. 

At times, I just stare out of the window & affix my eyes on no particular thing in preference. In this way, I rest my worn out mind. Staring into blank is a form of relaxation. Thereafter, my mind starts wandering & wondering. 

The direction of my thoughts today. I may be emotional but I'm a true believer of self-independence. Sometimes, I blurred the lines of being self-independent and being distant. I snap out within a split second. If I don't feel needed or required, I turn & walk straight out, without a tinge of emptiness or reluctance. But if a situation or person reveals their appreciation of my presence, I devote my best without any reservation. Believing in my self worth, I don't depend my happiness on anyone because I find happiness in too many things. The mere sight of fluffy clouds, my parents' squabbling, an elderly couple holding hands, a smile from a stranger, a pedestrian jay-walking hastily. Anything, anyone, any scent, any sound, I find a reason to discover the happiness in it. 

Someone once told me I'm pessimistic, but I'd say perhaps you don't know me well enough, perhaps you haven't seen my unexpected & unexplained smile when I'm out alone. I'm reticent about expressing my inner thoughts out loud, so I'm not surprised if anyone thought they understand me, in my entirety. 
My weekends were so packed I even had to set alarms on both days, something I don't usually do because I wish for my weekends to be less hectic. Moreover, it's sufficient to be setting alarms on 5 out of 7 days in a week right? Last weekend was packed with meaningful activities and I didn't have sufficient sleep on both Fri & Sat nights. The waking up early part was a feat, it was the sleeping late the night before part that made me really grouchy for not having ample beauty sleep.

Anyway, Redbull, shell & I accompanied wy for her monthly medical check-up and her bb is 14 weeks old which means WE CAN KNOW THE GENDER! A bb BOY! Now we can buy gender specific things. 

Indescribable emotions the moment this appeared on the flat screen. This was my first time seeing a new life that has yet to be brought to earth. Every thing so fragile, precious and amazing contained in this little new life. I was left bewildered seeing how big this little bb is despite how wy's weight has been dropping since her pregnancy. You continue growing healthily, little bb. But at the same time, try to spare your mummy as little agony as possible. Be healthy, both you precious darlings.

The rare day wy's appetite grew.
We had lunch at Saveur. Disappointed at the basmati rice with chicken roulade. The rice was watery and less rich. Their rice was one of my favs. The seabass, duck confit & pistachio dessert maintained the standard though I'm kinda sick of Saveur for the time being. The downside of having it too frequently. 

Right after Saveur, we Q up for Sushi Bar at fep while shell went for her waxing which is just opposite. By the time she was done, it was our turn. Yes, the Q is always long. But we were rewarded with food that was worthy of the Q. 





Had 2 plates of this salmon aburi. Am gonna try the soft shell crab salmon aburi the next time.

Their sirloin steak is a must try! 

Sunday was healthy trekking day at Bukit Timah Hill with the couple who was late. Redbull & I went ahead with the trekking by ourselves and halfway through, they called to say they were on their way so we took the same route back to the main road. 

A productive weekend. More of such weekends. 
Never have I been so attracted to an English song the first time I heard it. I've a mandarin song that does the same to me. The same uneasy feeling of me wondering how could the lyrics depict us so well when I wasn't even the one who came up with it and even if I was given a chance to do so, I wouldn't be able to pen down those words so beautifully yet unpretentiously. 

Those two songs, will be the ones we're gonna play at our intimate solemnization affair and wedding reception (if we do decide to have one). 
April Fools was the day when I fooled my family with my brilliant cooking skills. Alright, I didn't fool them, I really did whip up a korean meal for my siz's sweet 16th. Not self-proclaiming I did a fantastic job, but I do think I deserve a pat on my back, at least no one spitted out anything or suffered from a stomachache. That alone should be regarded as an achievement for a first-timer who learnt the ropes from online recipes, right?

Seafood tofu stew which is my favorite dish personally. 

Japchae: sweet potato glass noodles with mixed vegs. I fell in love with this dish when I had it at Bornga. 

The crunchiness was there. The marination was also there. But it tasted a little on the bitter side (when it's not supposed to) because I accidentally poured too much honey which turned bitter in excess. This would definitely taste better if I had remembered to buy corn syrup instead of replacing it with honey. 

All in all, the dinner was considered a success. I learnt what not to do, what to do. 

To my beauty
Swensens ice-cream cake, just what she wants. 




Yes, it's Lavigne's 'birthday' too. She joined our family on my siz's birthday, so it's naturally her birthday too. 

Look at the hands holding Lavigne, in case she pounced onto the cake. 




Peanut-butter cookie and strawberry. 

We've watched each other grown over the years and I want nothing but the best for you. Be healthy and genuinely happy (AND confident), beloved beauty.
I've always love crossing the borders to Msia, especially when it's a visit to my grandma's house. This time round, I love it more because Redbull finally decided to tag along just to make me happier. After this trip, I grew greedier, secretly wishing he'd go with my family & I every time. But well, of course I'm not going to constantly pester him to go, it must be according to his own wishes that would make the trip meaningful.

Anyway, due to Qing Ming Jie, everyone was making their way to Msia so we were stuck in the traffic for more than an hour or so. But, the journey was more tolerable because of the companion and random conversations accompanied by loud roars of monstrous laughter. 

Yeap, booked a private car for the 6 of us.

Lying on his flabby arms while watching the never-ending line of vehicles.

'No honking' sign which was ignored blatantly right at the custom's authorities' faces; all the impatient motorcyclists summoned all their energy to honk with all their might until the authorities opened another lane for them to pass through. 
Talk about teamwork. 

This faceless lone ranger.

Night time must-do activity is to visit the pasar malam for all the goodies. We ate non-stop the moment we embarked on the trail of food. Practically non-stop. We kept our eyes affixed to the two rows of stalls, hurling 'STOP' to the rest of us whenever any one of us saw something we wanted to eat.
 Beancurd, cheese fries, ice-kachang, peanut mochi, fried chicken, fish cake drenched with sweet chili, taiwan chicken bun, fried sweet potato balls, carrot-cake, cheese tofu tarts...

The amount of calories gained that night.

This is the first time we saw this stall, must be new bird. RM7 for a generous portion. 

Right after dinner was a search for Redbull's crabs. Spent close to 40 mins searching for his crabs, we all grew restless & tired. But at the very least, the crabs we found were satisfactory, ELSE...

Too little time to eat & shop. It'd be better if we've stayed till Sunday night instead of heading back to SG right after sao mu the next morning. Well, at least we had a sumptuous breakfast consisting of nice dim sum & dried kousong mee before letting the heat consumed us during sao mu. 

When you grow genuinely together as one, you find yourself compromising (we said to accompany each other for sao mu on every alternate year. Soon, it'll have to be arranging visiting during CNY), changing, setting goals together with another half. I always say I'm bless and don't ever doubt me when I say so. I may say "I'm tired of this" or somewhere along those lines when we get into a huge argument. But saying that doesn't mean I retract all my feelings towards how I've always feel, I'm just directing "I'm tired" towards that moment during the argument. 

Anyway, here's my gross looking heels after the foot mask. The process may be displeasing to the eyes, but the outcome is what's worth it. 

Wishing time could fast forward to Saturday where Redbull will be spending quality time with my family & I over at JB. He has missed out on so many past visits to my grandma's and he's finally going with us this time round. The feeling of felicity has stuck with me since the moment he said he's going to JB with me. 
Doses of surprises still spring at my doorstep every now and then. They aren't the ones you'll label as glamorous but only superficial beings would go after that cause all you need is money to buy that sort of glamor. Whereas down to earth and simple surprises are those that bear the most significant meaning in my heart despite the 'low maintenance' factor. Killing two birds with one stone, why not? 

Anyway, Redbull planned for a secret dinner date last Friday, just for me. How dear, I must say. Remembering my casual comment of wanting to try Pepperoni Pizzeria. Making the effort to call up the restaurant to make a reservation knowing the crowd. 

Yes, small gestures but don't tell me these aren't the gestures that make it through cause I bet they are the only gestures that matter in the long run. Idc whether a guy is all lovey dovey, splurges all his time, effort & money on me, showers me with endless mushy convo all day all night, IN THE BEGINNING. I don't wish for a relationship which goes through the extravagant 'honeymoon' period only to find the other half disappearing together with the initial 'glamor' he once showered upon me. 

The relationship & companionship I've wished for, I have it now, because of him. Sturdy, committed, full of nonsensical inner jokes, yet not lacking the passion and surprises. 

"All we knead is love"
Doughs of love


Starter is the deep fried giant portobello mushroom with chicken and the red wine sauce!

I ONLY have thin-crust pizza.

Hybrid pizza. Salmon and ham+egg.
Pasta/pizza, I'll spam the cheese powder for sure.

Only one of their pastas is cream base which is the classic carbonara which I like but wanted to try something different so I chose venus clams in white wine sauce fusilli. The garlic taste is too strong for Redbull's liking but garlic lovers like me should like it as much as I did.
 
 A satisfied night. like always. 
Thank you for You.
It wasn't our first cycling moment. I still remembered back in our secondary school days when renting chalets were the 'in' thing, something every secondary school kids did. I don't know if this is still as common among the secondary school kids nowadays. But anyway, we would go for (mid)night cycling till our legs went sore, till we couldn't even feel our butts. Those were such carefree days. 

Saturday was our cycling date, in hope of getting him involved in my exercising lifestyle as often as possible and it was a success because he enjoys it. A good start. 



He led the way, with every turn made according to his wishes. It felt good that we had no destination in mind, just going with the flow, not hectically racing against time. 

We need more of such dates. Physically and emotionally fulfilling days.

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