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Time, please have mercy on me. You, passing so swiftly from second to second, taunt me. This fear that accompanies me to sleep every night isn't a pleasing sight. I don't wish to grow up only because I don't wish to have my parents & grandmother growing older day by day. Yes, I'm selfish. I can't be selfless when anyone/anything comes right into my life & has the slightest idea of take away my love ones. 

I most certainly don't preach what I say to others; "Don't let the sadness eat you up. Her/his time is up & it is time she/he leaves. Soon, you will move on from this sadness that you're feeling now." When the death of my love ones comes knocking on my door someday, hell no can I move on! How am I suppose to move on with a life that no longer has them in it? Who am I suppose to hug when I'm overwhelmed with happiness? Who am I suppose to share the bitchiest gossip about one of my stuck up colleague with? Who am I suppose to turn to when I just feel like hiding under my blanket & never step out of my house? 

Who am I to live without them? 

I recall typing this here before, "Death doesn't separate the hearts". No, it doesn't. But, it prevents us from being physically beside each other; no warmth from each other's body heat, no hugs, no slapping of each other's arms when laughter gets the best of us, no hearing of each other's voices. Only thing left is memory of the past. 

I hate that I've to leave Sg in a few more months. I don't say it, but I've always thought to myself, what if I sacrifice my degree, in exchange for staying here with my love ones?